- The door speaks
- to the person passing through it
- regarding its frame and its bearing
- in the wall of the great house
- the heiress replies
- to an unspoken promise
- of lavender on a hearth
- burning gently in its own time
- words fail
- and so do i
- when i speak it is through many layers
- of plaster and rotten wood
- through adjustments for
- mismeasurement
- when i conquer time
- i will accept myself
- as a falling object
- that spins in air
- and cannot be deceived
- that it can right itself
- desire will move me
- and i will not resist it
- pain will contort me
- and i will not pretend to dance
- pleasure will overwhelm me
- and i will know
- it is only for a moment
- moving in the dust
- a bug capsized
- and unable to crawl
- to the safety of
- a stone’s underneath
- the dreamer is the one
- who knows that
- when she awakens
- she will die
- and return to God
- to be sent out
- to dream again
- of new desires
- the last thing i said to my mother
- is that i will be patient
- that i understand how she must feel
- and that she cannot be too slow
- for me to wait for
- she struggled
- for a long time to reply
- and i am still awaiting her answer
- and will continue waiting
- i long for the Dead Sea
- to hold me up with salt
- but even more i long
- for the Atlantic
- to toss me irresistibly
- i find at its deepest point a cave
- anyone can whistle
- and people do their most
- when they aren’t thinking about it
- it takes so long to
- furnish a home
- and there are so many missteps
- to take on the way
- to its atmosphere’s completion
- i am like a home
- i refuse to allow others
- to live inside of
- and will not accept visitors into
- i will never stop trying
- to allow myself
- to be free